i have been holding back
again

no particular reason
other than the entanglement of reasons all

i don’t know which reason to tend to
so i focus on the connections

these connections are the ones that tell me
over and over
that i don’t belong

so i put myself in normalized spaces
and i speak in non-belonger code
so that stealth non-belongers like me
living in plain sight
re-member
we belong

in the connections.